Sunday, June 22, 2003

The whining sound of the ceiling fan was the only noise in the hospital ward. Staring up blankly at the fan from his bed, Ah Hock was in a state of emotional turmoil. Pain and anger surged through him. His son had abandoned him to the hospital and refused to take care of him other than paying for his medical bills. He kept blaming himself for bringing up such an unfilial son. For most part of his life, he had been slogging to earn enough money for his son to get a good education. Now his son was not repaying back what his father deserved.
Ah Hock had been diagnosed with leukemia and had his right leg amputated, thus, he felt inferior to walk around. Life was very boring for him. He wanted to die as fast as he could and always defied the nurses and doctors. Lying opposite of Ah Hock was Kim Seng. He had been diagnosed with brain cancer and he knew his days were numbered. However, he still life his life happily. Ah Hock and Kim Seng started to chat with each other.
As Kim Seng knew that Ah Hock hated his life, he tried to cheer him up by describing to him what he saw outside his window every day: The couples strolling in the park, the birds flying, trees swaying, children playing happily in the playground… Gradually, Ah Hock looked forward everyday for Kim Seng’s “storytelling”. He livened up a lot and became more cheerful. He felt the deep joy of a new day radiate forth from inside him. He now obeys instructions given by the doctors and nurses.
Two months later, Kim Seng passed away. When the nurses came in to clear up, Ah Hock requested to move to the bed that Kim Seng used to sleep on. The nurses granted his request and when he lay on the bed and looked out of his window, what he could see was just a high wall. Curious, he asked the nurse how could Kim Seng describe so many things to him everyday and the nurse replied that Kim Seng was actually a blind man and he was using his imagination.
Upon realizing, Ah Hock could feel the moisture in his eyes, turning him into a blurry ghost. He was deeply touched by Kim Seng’s move to cheer him up and see another perspective of life. After all this, he knew he was not the most unfortunate man in this world. From then on, Ah Hock led his life happily and went to the park everyday in his wheelchair. Despite Kim Seng’s illness, he still helped others, he greatly thanked Kim Seng, as he was the one who changed his life.

~me~ at Sunday, June 22, 2003

I was totally mesmerized by his charm. He was tall for his age, with sweet brown eyes, dark eyelashes and curly brown hair. When he smiled, two little dimples appeared on his check, which were rosy with health. His good looks gave him a lot of disadvantages, as girls would always flock towards him. It was no surprise that he was very popular among the girls. Naturally, I was fuming with jealousy when I saw him flirting around. However, the sight of him would just excite me, making my heart pound hard against my rib cage.
As I stood behind him in the queue, I stole glances at Jeremy. My heart was thumping wildly once again. At that instant when I saw his heart-melting smile, I recollected the incident when he first talked to me and how I was smittened by his good looks and eventually fell deeply in love with him.
Much as I tried, I could not stop thinking of him. From the information that I had gathered from my friends, Jeremy had so far, no ideal girl in his mind and he never got himself a girlfriend despite spending most of his time dating girls.
As days went by, I realized my love for him had grown stronger and I knew very well that I could no longer resist myself.
“Go, go for the guy you want so much. He might like you too, you never know.” An encouraging voice spoke to me from within.
When I saw him at the corridor, I plucked up my courage and walked towards him.
“Hey, Jeremy, can I have a word with you?” I whispered.
“Yeah, sure!” replied Jeremy with a grin on his face.
“Jeremy, I hoped that upon hearing what I have to say, you wouldn’t be too shocked. And please do not avoid me after this,” I stammered.
Constantly nodding his head as a sense of approval, I continued.
“… I love you…” I blurted out nervously and stared at him intently to see his response.
Taking a deep breath, Jeremy said, “Actually... I’m also deeply in love with you.However,I am too shy to express it out.”
Upon hearing what Jeremy said, my initial fear in me evaporated into the sweet smelling air and a feeling of sweetness and love embraced me. Our love blossomed as days went by and we became a couple who was very much envied by everyone.
One day, while we were kissing each other, a teacher caught us and said, “Hey! What are you boys doing?”



~me~ at Sunday, June 22, 2003